Anxious to test

In March I had an early miscarriage a few days after we found out I was pregnant. I was devastated. We just started trying again now that we have moved, settled into our new house, and know for sure that my husband won’t be deploying this winter..

I think I’m pregnant. I have the symptoms I’ve only had when pregnant (with my now 2.5yo daughter and with the lost pregnancy back in March). But I’m scared to take a pregnancy test. My period is due sometime later this week. I keep thinking that if I am pregnant and I have another early miscarriage, then I’d rather just not know. But I also really want to know.

Anyone else have this struggle?