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Lately I’ve been very unhappy with some of the things my child’s father says(I’m currently 12w + 4days). He doesn’t want to participate in anything with me to celebrate the well being of our unborn child. Yea this is my second pregnancy. 🤷🏿‍♀️ However, I didn’t get the chance to celebrate and be happy with my first child because I was 17. My feelings are hurt. But I refuse to let someone take the experience away from me all because of family differences(he thinks my family is too bougie and judgmental). I constantly assure him that we(my family and I) could careless because it’s not about them. I hate this, I hate this feeling. But what can I do besides blame myself because this is who I chose to have a child by. He had the opportunity to have a baby shower with his first child, he had the opportunity to be happy. But I can’t. I can’t bare that fact that I’d have to go through and enjoy this alone.