Feel bad

I feel bad now. Yesterday i was so frustrated n sad my bf was being mean to me n then my baby wouldnt go to sleep shes 9 weeks n i was like im so done i just wanted to leave alone. I told him leave n take the baby with u i cant do this. N i was thinking abt adoption but now that im feeling better i feel bad for thinking that abt my baby. :( i do want my baby idk why i was thinking of that but i do want to keep her :(