Helpless

I’ve been so down and so stressed out. Nobody understand. Well not the ppl I need to. I need to work but idk how . Like my anxiety is so bad , last yr i applied for a job went to training got hired and i couldn’t even make it to my first day. The fear that overcame me was so unbearable i went to my mom for help and i NEVER do that. I cried for days. I know I dont and can’t deal with a lot people etc so I applied to housekeeping but literally you need years of experience and they mainly hire Hispanics here. Idk what else to do. I fucking hate this I wish I didn’t have anxiety or depression. I can’t do this anymore 😭😭😭 like who helps people with mental health issues get work cope etc ? Please help me