I'm constantly worrying something will go wrong

S β€’ Mummy to angel babies πŸ‘ΌπŸΌπŸ’” Pregnant 🀰with our rainbow baby boy- due 7/10/19πŸŒˆπŸ‘ΆπŸΌπŸ’™

After a loss at 4 weeks then 9 weeks last year I cant relax in this pregnancy. I was told at 5 weeks I would likely miscarry due to cramps and bleeding and then at 10 weeks I had a big hemorrhage and thought all was over. I had a subchorionic haematoma which resolved. 12 week scan and 20 week scan were completely normal. I have worried about everything and had so many private scans and been checked out at assessment for many things like cramps, aches and I thought my waters were leaking once. I thought once I made it to viability I would be ok but I'm still as anxious as the beginning. I'm worried about stillbirth, premature labour or something wrong with baby when born. I buy baby items and get worried he wont get to use it or we wont bring him home. I'm currently on anti anxiety meds and attending therapy. I feel alone and guilty feeling this way. I love having a bump and feeling him move but my gosh I'm struggling mentally. Anyone else suffering? Thanks.