Taking my anger & moodiness out on my BF... 😓

Lately I’ve been more angry randomly & I feel awful when I tell my boyfriend not to talk to me or just ignore him when I get in these slumps. I honestly feel like I have no control of this part of me anymore, I completely trust my boyfriend 100% but I always feel the need to ask him who is he hanging out with, if any girls, or where he has been. When he’s out I sometimes feel like he’s cheating when deep down I know he wouldn’t but part of me likes to think about those awful scenarios & end up getting mad & feel closed off towards him.

It almost feels like I have separation anxiety with him because we do live together & been together for 10 months.

I honestly need help, I’m destroying myself, my depression & anxiety is just getting worse. I don’t know what to do anymore... :(