“I’m pregnant.!! “

“I’m pregnant.” will I ever be able to say that? I’m at the where I’m not even trying to make a baby, not preplanning the sex according to my ovulation cz it won’t get me pregnant anyway so why bother- I guess I’m just tired of trying 😩😩😩 it’s been 2 years and tons of negative test- I just feel like I’m losing the hope 😥😰