Lonely

December to February I was seeing this man. Who took care of me and we hung out every night. He even called me babe. After three months, i thought that we were basically in a relationship. I figured it’s ok that finally have sex. I was still uneasy cuz I was still a virgin and would’ve liked more of a commitment out of him. But what did I have to lose? So we did it. Two days later he texts me he doesn’t want to see me anymore. Did I mention I work with him? So that sucked. I should’ve seen it coming but I was naive thinking this is what love is. Now I of course hate him. He’s a pig. I was just a game to him. But I miss having someone to kiss and be with. Hadn’t really dated anyone other than him. So when I’m lonely I think of how he used to kiss me. And then I’m crushed all over again even tho it’s been, what, 4 months? Almost 5? Maybe I’m just a pansy. I don’t know. I feel pathetic and I need some girl power. Can anyone relate?