I am 5 weeks 2 days pregnant. Almost exactly 2 years ago I got pregnant with baby #1 and miscarried in August at 10 weeks. Now we’re pregnant again. Finally.

I have almost no symptoms. Everyone keeps asking me how I feel but I feel nothing. I’m tired most of the time despite sleeping all the time. My boobs kinda hurt, I can smell everything and want to eat nothing. No nausea, no morning sickness (is it weird that I want morning sickness), no ravenous hunger, no frequent urge to pee. I feel nothing. Except cramps.

They aren’t extreme or constant just small cramps like if someone turned the volume down on my normal period cramps.

And today there was blood. Not a lot, not in large clumps, not the deep dark red that makes people faint. Just a little blood when I went pee.

Maybe all of this is nothing to worry about, but I can’t help but sit here and feel like this is all I should be worrying about. That the worst is happening again and I just want it to be over.