I need to express myself without judgement & I know this group will help. I lost my son Riley over a year ago & he was a week shy from 7 months old. I just found out 3 weeks ago that I am pregnant. I am not going to lie, I am completely terrified & cant feel any excitement. I have so many mixed emotions like what if this baby is born sick like my son was? Than I think well what if the baby ends up healthy? Then I feel this guilt that it wasn’t fair my son wasn’t born healthy. I probably sound so ridiculous but I can’t get a hold on my anxiety & depression. All I can think about is how much I miss my son Riley & I have this major guilt of being pregnant & to be excited about it. Are their any others moms on here who have gone through the same thing? I need any type of reassurance. I hope to think that this rainbow baby was sent from god & my son. Any words of encouragement? Thank you for the non judgement.