So Just wanted to be able to tell my story a little bit And there's not very many places To tell it And if you posted In the regular trying to conceive Then they sometimes take it offensive If it's a lesbians couple So I figured I'd post It here.

So I was married for 11 years to a woman that I really love I thought that she wanted a baby just as much as I did But I was wrong We tried for about 8 years And nothing I never got pregnant not once I got a lot of Think there's a line But nothing sure. Well my wife decided she didn't want to have a child anymore So instead of sitting down and talking to me about it She decided to up and go to work And never come back home She's a truck driver So she drove nights She kiss me on the lips And told me that she love me And that she would see me in the morning As usual But I didn't see her in the morning In fact I end up with a broken heart She posted so many things about me on Facebook Saying that I was cheating And all this other stuff I guess trying to compensate for her leaving in the first place And not being very truthful about why she left A lot of my friends Helped her Actually leave They Helped her To hide some of her stuff at their house That way she could leave with some things But there wasn't much that she could take without me noticing Of course my phone was one of them that she Took That way I would not be able to call her that night Which I normally did to tell her that I loved her and I will see her in the morning And of course to be careful Because a truck drivers job is really hard And the wives job is hard to Not knowing if your partner is going to make it home that night Well that morning. So fast forward And Your a year later And I've met someone new She's amazing Does so much for me And takes care of me anyways I can't even explain She does things for me that my wife never did Like rub my feet And I never have to ask her to do it She just does it She treats me like a queen So it's pretty nice I'm not getting any younger Turn 37 And she is 47 about to be 48 So she's not getting any younger either A lot of people are saying We're taking it a little bit too fast But I don't feel the same way We have decided to take the journey Try and conceive So we can have a family Because neither of us have kids. We just want to add Somebody Family Someone we can love someone we can spoil Someone to carry on our legacy We just want to be your everyday moms Just like everybody else But this is where the story gets funny So this is how we try every month We do the Ovulation Test And we do a donor When it's time we text him I know that we need our donation We then drive to him To retrieve it We have something called a baby bag It has baby wipes Towel Blanket Myself cups A very sterile syringe Proceed So pretty much everything that is needed In order to inject And of course she wants to be able to inject so that makes it A little bit funnier Once we get to the donors house we give him a soft cup And he does his business Then he hands it over to my girlfriend I'm always in the car Waiting For it So I can do what I need to do to get it ready But in the process At the back seat My car ready. I'm make it like my own personal doctor's office So it's pretty setup We always try to do it at night Because it makes it so much easier Especially with her wanting to Inject So after I'm done doing what I need to do We pullover And I Place the syringe Of course because I don't want her To Push it into far. I been allow her to injected And then I place My soft cup And then I tell her to turn the music up And I do what I need to do in the back seat Which we kind of all know what that is. So it's been a pretty funny journey But at the same time It's made a lot of memories And I told her that if we get pregnant that it's going to be a very funny story to Be able to tell our son or daughter. I actually plan on keeping my car in case we have a child To pass it down to them But of course I want to take a picture of us pregnant in front of the car before we give it to them Later on in life So we want them to know the full story behind it that we love them and the journey that we went through in order to have them And It was not only a hard journey but it was an amazing journey. I myself have been trying for about 11 years Off and on And my new girlfriend has never done it So this is new to her. Some People ask Why do you do that Backseat Well here's why because we drive so far to go pick up our donation so we need To be able to put it in at a Certain point. For those of you that are doing it the same way I'm sure you can understand We normally don't know our donor personally so that's why we choose not to do it at their house Of course we know that there Clean And s t d free So we do play it smart We found our donor on the known registry app And we always make a point to text him or call him and talk to him about certain things that we want and how we want it And that we don't want it to be sexual And that we also don't want it to be a situation where they play the father. We of course want to raise them and be there only parents. But we will make it to where if they do want to know the donor then we will make sure that they will be able to meet him at some point But we also want them to understand why we did it the way we did Because we wanted them We wanted to love them We dreamed of them And there so many other things. The journey has been hard It has also been expensive But of course most of you already know that We go through so much Like 2 week wait. Then comes the day where we take our pregnancy test hoping and praying that it will be the day that we will get Are positive So we can scream and shout I'm joy. I of course never thought that I would fall in love with someone else after my wife because I loved my wife so very much but My girlfriend Is so amazing That it's hard to explain the way She makes me feel. Also I feel a bond with her that feels absolutely unbreakable Like no matter what Comes our way We will be able to get through it together No matter what. But I just figured that I would share my story of how we are trying to get pregnant and have our first baby Because I think it's a little bit funny and a little bit out of the ordinary And maybe there are some others that are doing it the same way. So if there is If there's anything that you can share with us what we Can do differently That would help us to conceive That would be great Because her and I have only been trying to conceive for about 4 months so it hasn't been that long It has from me but not for her so I get a little bit tired but I have to go through it in order to get the precious Gift At the end of the Rainbow. So I have to keep pushing myself in order to get that for even if I get tired. So like I said if there's anything that anyone can give us some advice on if you guys are trying the same way That can help us get pregnant faster that would be awesome and we would really appreciate it. But that is the ending to our amazing journey and our amazing story That we fine is going to be so amazing to explain to our child if we get to that point. But I also thought I would share in case there is a couple out there that is trying to figure out a way to get pregnant But doesn't know how to go about doing it if you have to travel in order to get your donation You would be very surprised how much fun it is to do it in the car And Having your partner To laugh with you Makes it so much greater. I have told her though that I would like to try at least 1 month of having it shipped to us that way we can try at home That way I can put my legs up and feel comfortable and stay in 1 position As it's kind of hard To do that in a car Although I do But of course I have a blanket. So we wish everyone in this room baby does and we hope that you all get your babies Your beautiful little Rainbow babies And we hope that their sticky little beans. Because I know how hard it is and I know that we're trying really hard And I hope and pray that we can get our Rainbow baby soon. So God bless everyone Keep the faith And hope Alive. Also 1 other thing Wanted to mention Was we also found a spell caster who actually casted a spell for us in order for us to get pregnant And the way that she did it was she made it to where we would get pregnant within 6 months and if we didn't then she would cast it again. It was called a new moon spell Which is awesome I was sent a Beautiful Little heart And it looks like a purple or pink marble And I wear it around my neck all the time and if I Take it off I put it under my pillow But to me I was scared at first but I'm Not anymore Because she's not into black magic only white magic So she's considered an angel spell caster. So if you would like to know how to get to her website in order to get her to cast any spell for you it can be a pregnancy spill and it can also be a spell on the gender Like if you want a certain gender she can cast his spell for that as well But she does so many other ones and she will actually do a special one for you if you requested It It wasn't very expensive for us to get it I think it was about $35 Dollars But it all depends on which one you pick If you pick 1 that is really really strong it may cost you a little bit more But I feel even though I have all the faith in the world with God to get pregnant To add A bit more help Is great. I guess in some since it gives me a little bit more hope and it gives me a little bit more excitement. Now once you become pregnant You then email her and let her know that you're pregnant She will then Cast Another spell That's called a protection spell That will protect you and the baby from Anything. But everybody is different so it's up to you I just felt the need to put it out there Especially if you've been trying for a very long time But I hope everybody the best of luck. And thank you for taking the time to read our story!