I’ve been on and off the phone all morning trying to get ahold of any Ob/Gyn in the office I go to.

I am having some brown spotting that seems to be increasing in volume as the day goes on. I’ve also had some mild cramping.

Finally they got ahold of one of the on call doctor and they told me that they can’t do anything until next week because their ultrasound is booked out until then. But that if I was concerned that I should go to the ER.

I feel like I could explode from worry and having no support from anyone who understands what I’m going through. My mother won’t talk to me about my pregnancy. My husband doesn’t want me to talk to my mom about my pregnancy. My husband is making me look like the bad guy because I’m “wrecking his nerves” and he “can’t enjoy my pregnancy” because I get worried every time I get any spotting.

But it took us 2 years to get to this point. It took clomid for me to finally fall pregnant. I had one scan a few weeks back in the ER because I was spotting brown and they didn’t see anything (because my levels were only 157) and so they suspected a miscarriage and had me check back in in 48 hours with more bloodwork. Bloodwork came back at 474 and had tripled in 48 hours.

Cool, that means everything is going ok. But then two days ago I started spotting again but this time it was pink. Now I haven’t had any intercourse for over a month which is what the doctors are saying that it is. But then over the past day and this morning it’s gotten worse. The spotting has gotten heavier and I’m not necessarily worried I just want to know everyone and everything is safe.

It’s just hard not having anyone to talk to because there is a lot of jealousy and unhappiness about the fact I’m pregnant and if I talk to anyone about it they just tell me to relax.

- a very frustrated and pregnant woman