I was finally getting out of a relationship with my ex. I met him last summer and the first night I met him we did it. Then my sister came and they fucked right after. I shouldn’t have even continued talking to him after that but I did. I even moved in with him and after several months I found out he was cheating on me. At the same time my grandma died and it didn’t even matter to him. He so much lied to me about his age. Telling me he’s 22 when he’s more like 26. He’s done so much to me and I finally had left him. My birthday came on January 31st and I turned 18. He kept trying to get a hold of me so he could do something for my bday. I finally went to his place around February 23 and I ended up getting sick the same day. I was so hot that I was shaking and I couldn’t even make it to the bathroom because I was so weak. I just laid down and thought I had a regular cold. No matter how sick I was he had sex with me. I kept telling him no but it obviously didn’t matter to him. The next day I finally went to the doctor because of how bad I was. I was admitted to the hospital for a week. My temp was 104 and my body was septic. They had me on so much antibiotics and sent me home with a high dose. It cause me to get a yeast infection and I thought maybe since all the things that were going on my period was late. We went to the doctor a couple weeks later and sure enough I had a yeast infection and I found out I was pregnant. My cousin who’s 21 just had an abortion a couple months before that and I supported her yet wasn’t fully understanding her decision. I thought it was selfish. All the first 12 weeks my mom kept asking me are you sure you want to keep it and I kept saying yes. I said abortion isn’t even a question. I just can’t. When I was around 7weeks pregnant I found out my ex also had got the female he was cheating on me with pregnant as well. And we are the same months along. I barely ever talk to him. But now here I am 22 weeks pregnant with a boy and everything’s hitting me. I feel bad I was so judgemental in my head toward my cousin. I started crying just now for an hour or two wishing I was open to different options and thinking more about everything. I know the choice I made and I’m sticking with it now. I’ve already announced it to everybody and it’s no secret. I just needed to vent 😔