RANT/Wife cheating

Calvin

Hello,

Well I think my wife is cheating on me! She's does sneaky stuff always protective of her phone! Always near or under her even when she's sleeps. I know if I ask to go through it she will get pissed! She's always on her phone, super addicted to it. Always doing something on it, I've seen her sometimes when I was walking down our hallway when she's on it in the chair, I can she what she's doing but not exactly what it is, I see her close out certain things really fast and go to something else and scroll fast past where she just was. Acting like nothing she's done, I know she clears her history out on a regular especially what she searches. She looks up other guys I know but I dont know if they have messenger together. I also know she hides stuff and deletes things like text messages and private messages. I know for sure one thing she cheats on me with is her *phone* itself! It gets all the attention! Have you ever been ignored by your spouse, it's a bad feeling, like they dont give a fart what you think or say, no matter what you say do or text they dont respond or half read what you said. If you know someone has been done this way before, why would you cheat them again! It's really hard to deal with being that I've been cheated on before, I honestly have *never* cheated on my wife! AND I MEAN NEVER! I dont hide or do anything from her. I understand the hurt and pain from cheating does, I will make you want to kill yourself, and to trust another person with all your heart and have it happen again (cause all the signs are there) is just devastating! Have no clue what I done to her for her to do me this way! I love her am faithful, a Christian husband, honest person. And i think she secretly hates me. She doesn't like to touch me, frowns when i touch her, makes me feel funny at times. She doesn't seem into sex anymore even though she will with me sometimes. But she's like whatever. I pray all the time for her and us! I Pray these things are not true, I cant handle going through this again! That's to much hurt and pain. So what should I do here? Risk asking her to go through her phone and starting a fight? Ignore it and wait to she if she is when she says I want a divorce? Any advice would be appreciated here! Thank you!