24 days late. (Kinda long, sorry)

24 days late.

Over tested 3 different times, all negative.

I so annoyed. And I'm jealous of the pregnant women I see or hear about, especially the 14-16 year olds who become pregnant and then post that their scared to tell their parents. (I'm sorry I'm jealous, I dont want to be)

I just want my BFP and a couple people around me who know we are trying just keep saying "your time will come" or "itll happened once you stop thinking about it"

And yeah maybe it will, and maybe it's not my time. But that's not what I want to hear, that's not helping me get over this sadness.

And sometimes I'm so depressed we haven't gotten our positive yet, but I have to hide it from my fiance cause hes not as excited as i am when it comes to talking about babies or anything like that. And i think its cause hes never been around babies.

Me on the other hand I have been around babies since I was like 5, I've wanted to be a mom since then. I've helped raise 6 babies from birth that weren't mine. And now I have my own space, a good job, a fiance who also has a really good job and I still dont have a baby of my own. I'm just sad. I want it to be my time.

I'm just sad and disappointed. Ughh.