Anyone on here been diagnosed with depression...

I’m not sure what’s going through my head or what but... I have good days and I have bad days and the bad days seem to be really bad..

I haven’t been clinically diagnosed with depression so I don’t know if it’s depression or what... I don’t feel like myself anymore.. I’m constantly putting myself down in my own mind. There are days when I feel like my kids would be better off without me.. I love my husband and I am happy in my marriage but I’m also so self conscious and feel like I would be better off by myself.. on my good days I laugh and smile and on my bad days I pull myself away from my husband and I just want to curl in a ball and cry.. I am going to talk to my doctor but I wanted to see if anyone else had any experience.