Miscarriage at 4weeks 6days

Yesterday evening I felt, it’s hard to describe, it felt like being scratched on the inside from one side of my stomach to the other. It didn’t hurt necessarily but it was noticeable I didn’t really pay any attention to it though. I had a headache all day and really just didn’t feel good in general so it was a lazy day on the couch. Around 8-9pm I started cramping, it was a dull cramp wasn’t super painful and it would come and go. A little later I went to the restroom and when I wiped there was pinkish blood on the tissue, I knew pregnant women do spot and there was none on my underwear but I put a pad on just to monitor it. Around 10 I had lower back pain and the bleeding had changed to a dark red but still none on the pad. This morning I woke up went to the restroom and it was still dark red with some small clots. My heart sank the moment I saw the clots. It’s picked up I’m having mensural cramps still haven’t bled on the pad but every time I use the restroom I drop clots. I’ve laid in bed all day and cried. We weren’t trying super hard and this pregnancy came as bit of a surprise. In this few short weeks we’ve fallen in love with the idea of being parents and fallen in love with this tiny little bit a cells the would have become our child. He’s already talking about trying again but I’m not sure if I want to anytime soon. I know miscarriage is common especially this early but I still feel like I failed.