I’m confused

Hola, I’m a 13 year old girl and I need some help with this. I have been trimming my pubic hair with special scissors. But, it’s so annoying to have to do constantly. I have been trying to find a way to get wax or a bikini trimmer without anyone noticing but it’s kind of impossible. Saying something to my mom makes me feel uncomfortable so I don‘t want to tell anyone. I don’t know what else to do..... anyone have anyways to help with having to get other people involved?