Just a let go of the past

So i had my first love in 7th grade we was so happy till we start hitting months he would talk to other girls behind my back cheated on me with a girl that was like a sister to me and i still stayed with him because i didn’t want to believe what other people said which had turned out to be true i was hurt i was angry and be was also trying to get with his girl bestfriend which hurt me the most. So we went to lunch and people kept saying “he said he single” so i tried to play it off till we switch to out next period so i was walking up to give my friend a hug and turn around and he grabbed me and said “so i don’t get a hug” (with a smile) i was like “nah u single right” and he said “yea” and my heart jus broke I couldn’t think for the rest of the school day or should i say a couple months but i pulled myself together and told myself “its ok your to young to even be thinking about having a boyfriend” but he was my first love i know y’all probably thinking she doesn’t know what love is but I really do cause when things went bad i was there for him i love and cared for him when we argued i would be the one to put a smile on both of our faces (at a young age) my whole family loved him he was a bonus son to my mom my own cousin who came to visit my aunt liked him. But its ok cause ion got nothing for him no more after how he treated me i was on to the next.