Losing hope 💔

When I was 15 and first lost my virginity I got pregnant and miscarried about 3 weeks later . Didn’t even know I was pregnant the guy told me that missing my period is normal after losing my virginity. When I was 16 I got diagnosed with a ovarian cyst I was in the hospital for about a week but was sick for a month. Doctors treated it with antibiotics and it’s still there but it’s tiny. Doctor from the hospital told me I’d never be able to have kids. But in 2017 my ob said she’s not sure why that doctor told me that but I can have children. I’m now 19 . Finically stable, i work for the school district. I have my own car that’s paid off. I’m very stable and prepared to have a child. I still live with my mom rn but about to move in with my SO. I suffer from depression and anxiety really bad and I feel like if I’m not pregnant then I have no reason to live. He and I tried for a baby on the 28 of last month. I’m currently 11dpo . At dpo my nipples became really sore. I couldn’t even touch them. At 8dpo I noticed swelling of my breast, they’re extremely large in size (NEVER HAPPENS BEFORE MY PERIOD) all of my test have been evap with the faint line. At 9dpo I noticed the darkening around my nipples. I’ve been having back pain and lately have been going to bed super early and sleeping in. My nipples are still sore. I’m peeing a lot more. Everything is just different. But what if it’s all in my head? I got blood work done yesterday and I’m just nervous because I really want this baby. I feel like this will be a start of a new chapter for me. Just kinda scared and losing hope . My period isn’t due till Saturday blood work will be back Thursday . I’m just super nervousss.