I just found out I'm pregnant again after two losses. My first reaction was thank you lord. Now I kinda just feel blank. I haven't told my SO cause I remember the hurt in his eyes when I told him I was bleeding with my last loss and I couldn't bear seeing him like that again. It's like my brain went into defense mode so I won't be too disappointed if God forbid I lose another. Anyone else have these feelings? Maybe once I get through the first trimester I will feel better.