So I had a miscarriage in march this year. I'm still trying to come to terms with it as my partners sister is pregnant and is only a few weeks before my due date.... anyway so I'm starting a new job but all I've ever wanted is to be a mum and that all got taken away from me so sudden. I still cry and hope I'm pregnant each month. He's now just asked me to go back onto the pill bcos of my new job which I understand but this is such a massive set back for me. I've told him I'm not going on the pill at all that he can use condoms but I don't even want that either.... the only thing I want in life is to be a mum and everything is just getting in the fecking way. I don't know how to cope anymore!