Getting used to failing

Brief rant- Ttc over 2 years, one early miscarriage- been over year since then. Three medicated cycle with femara, two iui, all failed. Doing one last iui.

Initially each failed month was a mix bag of disappointment, anger, frustration followed by hope etc

But now more and more I just feel numb and expect failure... anyone relate ?

just a lil rant, thanks for reading, sincerely wishing everyone success !