So, I really want to have a baby. I'll probably never be able to actually have one due to infertility. I still kind of wanted to try cause having my own baby is something that I've wanted a very long time. My boyfriend doesn't want any more kids, he already has three. We've talked about it in the past. He's said thing like "I don't want anymore right now" and also has said "I'm done having kids, I don't want anymore." I feel like he probably only said the right now thing to make me feel better. He's told me that he would understand if I left him to be with someone who would want to have kids. I love him so much and I don't feel like it's worth it to lose him on some slim to none chance that I could have a kid. It doesn't stop me from feeling sad over it though.