Probably PPD/PPA

I think I have a problem.

I get really mad when my baby refuses to stay down during the night feedings. Like mad to the point where I want to yell/hurt him him. I try more than 3 times to put him down after he finishes his bottle and I give him enough time to burp and get drowsy in my arms. I put him down and he instantly starts grunting, stretching and opens his eyes until he wakes himself up. I try to lull him back to sleep with his pacifier and he will fall asleep until it either falls out of his mouth or I take it out then he’s wide awake again. It is the most frustrating thing for me to deal with when I’m already sleep deprived and it’s the middle of the night and he has a clean diaper and full belly . It also feels like he only does it with me and not when my husband feeds him. I know I should be more patient but I’m so mentally and physically exhausted. All of my days and nights are spent caring for this baby and honestly sometimes I regret having him. I don’t have a life anymore. I don’t understand how people have kids and find the time to juggle everything else in life and somehow keep your marriage/relationship intact, my husband and I are great teammates and we care for the baby just fine but him and I don’t have any time for each other anymore it’s depressing.