We’ve been married for almost a year...we’ve had actual sex three times...it hurts so much...I’m on so much medicine and physical therapy and it still hurts...nothing feels good ever...I don’t know what pleasure feels like anymore...every other girl seems to be able to have sex on the fly with no help any way they want...I can’t even get it to not hurt with multiple professionals involved...it feels like I’ll never be able to feel okay and I’ll never be able to truly satisfy my husband...I do what I can and even that is excruciating.

We love each other so much and it’s breaking my heart for him. I would take literal numbness just so I could please him...but I want to feel something too. Literally anything...please God