Life right now is kicking me while I'm down. My husband had a reversal back in October. It seems we have been trying hard to have a baby ever since. I lost my 5 month old puppy yesterday. This really makes me feel like the universe is telling me that it's not my time. I am a mother of 2 step daughters and one daughter. Do not get me wrong I love them all so very much but I'm ready for another one. I'm also ready to have some control of my life. Feeling helpless these days and really do not have a good support system besides my family and I think sometimes that makes it harder for me. I'm sorry to put this all out here like this, but I really needed to get it out.