I’m a Senior this year in Highschool. Ever since school ended my boyfriend and I have been fighting so much. Back in May I had a chemical pregnancy that caused a lot of stress between us. This summer has been really awful. A majority of my friends have either cut me out of their lives or just don’t have time for me anymore. Boyfriend is working a lot, too, Monday through Saturday, even though he promised me at the beginning of summer that Saturdays would be for us. It’s really difficult on me because I’m having trouble getting hours at my job. I’m working 2 days a week, the rest of the week I’m stuck at home crying in bed because I feel like nobody has time for me or wants to see me. I hate feeling like this because I know my boyfriend loves me very much. I end up taking my anger out on him a lot even though I don’t mean it. I usually start crying because I’m so lonely all the time and miss him and then get angry when he says something dumb. For example, he said it was annoying to him that we could go to dinner one night and then I’d be upset the next few days that I can’t see him because he’s at work. It upset me that he said I annoyed him but I understand that he gets upset that I’m so needy.

Unfortunately, I was diagnosed with depression at 13 and have been refused treatment for the last 5 years by my guardians. I wish he understood that my loneliness is due to me being left alone with my own thoughts all the time. I don’t have anyone to talk to besides him, so I know it’s so stressful for him. I wish I could fix myself to better our relationship. Tonight I got so upset that I started talking about breaking up because it’s unfair for him to deal with me constantly being happy and then sad and then angry and dealing with my neediness. Neither of us want to break up, like I said we love eachother very much. We’ve just hit such a bad rough patch recently. We never used to fight like this.

If anyone has any advice on how to curb feeling so lonely please comment. I don’t wanna lose him because I’m always sad