so I want to start off by saying I’m a virgin .

Lately I’ve been craving to have the presence of a guys body all to myself. and as for my body all to a guy.i low key want to have sex ... especially oral , give head to the guy I’d have sex with. there is this special guy (he’s a virgin, but a baddie) i trust he is because he was always respectful. I had a connection with him and we said if we would loose our virginity it’d be together. him and I talked about what’d we’d do to e/o and how it’d be so romantic to loose our virginity outside on top of a hill laying on the grass late at night seeing the stars and passionately touching e/o body , having sex. he said he would kiss me slowly all over my body telling me what he loves about me and how beautiful my body is . and I’ve never said to anyone that I’d have sex with them or I would loose my virginity to them. I haven’t had someone where the connection was so strong I was craving more than just there love but his presence. I admitted to him He’s the guy id loose my virginity to and show him and give him all of me as a act that I trust him n love him. he told me once to let myself out but I couldn’t because my parents wouldn’t let me i know . and I don’t talk to him anymore because he deleted snap , I have him on Instagram which he still uses . And I want to hit him up and talk . and tell him I want to have sex . But I’m nervous and scared on how he’d react . because I’m sure there are many beautiful gals at his school who are also very attractive and have good bodies. I want it to be him who I loose it to tho.but at the same time I don’t want to loose it because I want to still be a virgin and have that pride of self worth in a way . and wait till I have a good relationship with a guy whom I trust and love. who’ll wait all the time , want me for more than just sexual desire. please just give an opinion and help me please and thank you .