Idk I just have this feeling I’m having a girl

And all the signs point to me having one but another part of me is saying boy because I have 2 already and my head believes that I can only make boys and I want a girl so bad and to me feels like if I want something bad it’ll turn out to be the opposite of what I want 😩😭 I just cannot take it lol this wait is killing me I am soo anxious maybe because in my mind I tell myself I’m not having anymore kids so I want this one to be a girl for my last baby

Idk I’m all over the place can’t sleep and just overthinking

And then I’m afraid when I do get the scan baby is not gonna cooperate 😩😭

& my oldest son just told me earlier he wants a sister