I don’t know if this is just be but am I the only one who has super popular friends while I’m just a no body. I’m not saying this as me trying to be relatable or anything it’s just something that’s weird. I’m quite an outgoing person once you know me but I find it hard to get close friends. I have my inner circle of friends who I hangout with all the time. There’s one of them who’s one of my closest friends and is way more popular than me. I don’t let it get to me or anything and I am not jealous of her, I love her but recently it’s been super hard. When I have a crush on someone I’m not the type of person to make a move or anything like that I usually just tell my friends or keep it to myself the most recent situation was when I had a crush on this guy who went to another school, I knew him through one of my friends. I never really admitted it was a full on crush but I told my friends I semi liked him and that I thought he was cute and stuff. She knew how I felt and laughed at me because of it (funny way I laughed along as well) but then she saw a photo of him and said she thought he was cute as well. I don’t know why but after that I felt like I couldn’t say how I felt about him. She eventually started developing a mini crush on him and I pushed myself out of the situation. She always said how she would be deadly pissed if her friend liked the same guy as her and now I realise what a hypocrite she is. Her and that guy even started dming. He dmed her first. I know the only reason why he did was because shes prettier and more popular than me. The worst thing was is that she only talked about her feelings for him with me and not any of her other friends. It’s like she totally forgot about how I felt about him. I also feel like she’s setting unrealistic standards for me. She invited me to this party but I chose not to go because I wanted to go to youth instead and she made me feel so bad. Another thing was how she makes me feel like when I do have a crush (that she doesn’t end up having a crush on) I should date them. This won’t happen for me I’m too awkward and they won’t like me back and that’s something I don’t mind admitting and honestly I know that’s true and I’m fine with that but I’ve never dated anyone and my crush has never liked me back and that’s just who I am. When her crush doesn’t like her back or doesn’t want to date her she makes a huge fuss and makes it seem not achieving that means your are unloveable and it’s really not helping me self esteem. There are some other stuff but this post is already super long but I have no idea what to do nad I don’t want to keep things the way they are but at the dame time I don’t want to lose her because like i said before I love her and care about her and there is so many things she does that makes me happy and brings me joy every single day so please HELP!!!