I’m turning into one of those “jealous/bitter” women
I keep seeing so many posts about 2nd baby or 3rd baby announcements
4th baby
5th baby
6th baby
And so on
And “I’m only 3/4 months postpartum and I’m pregnant again!!!!!”
And I’m sitting here going through a 4th miscarriage
No children
And as happy as I am for other people
I can feel those shitty
“Wow so everyone out here can have a baby except me?” Thoughts creeping into my head
It’s more a reflection of how mad I am at my own body
Not that I’m unhappy for anyone else
To be clear
I would never be less than happy for someone else to get blessed with however many babies they have
But
Like WHY GOD
Where’s my baby?!
I just want one!!!! Though I’ve prayed and wished and hoped to have 3 children
I would give anything for just one baby! One child! I would happily deal with every shitty symptom no matter how horrible
Just to be able to bring one life into this world
And to be a mother
I don’t want to be this person
Mad at my own body
I just want to be a mom :(
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