So I started protera and clomid, but today I am realizing that my husband may not be on the same page as me with wanting another baby. He says “Yes” “we will never be ready” “we weren’t ready for Eddie” but I can tell he is really feeling, “I hope i can make it God”. Then I found out today that I am going to have to figure out how to fork out $450 a month to Sallie Mae to keep my account from going to a third party. At this point I’m really depressed. I wasn’t having periods, this was supposed to jump stsrt my cycle so I can finally get pregnant, and now I’m wondering...am I only going to have this cycle because of the meds? What happens when it’s over? I can’t even lose weight right now.

I am just really defeated right now. I already struggle with depression and anxiety and right now I just want to lay in my bed for the next 2 days.