1cm dilated and feeling defeated 🙄

38 weeks and 2days, had my last OB appointment today and she said I'm 1cm dilated and couldn't do my membrane sweep. Feeling just defeated I want him out. He's going to be a good 8.5 to 9lbs by time he is born no joke. I wanted to not have to be induced and for him to come on his own but at this point I'm feeling like that is how it's going to be. I have to be induced by 39 weeks due to GD. And irritated that I might not get my OB. Everyone else is optimistic except for me and I'm over this.