I like you so much. You are so funny and caring. We just click. I want to be with you, but I am scared. I am scared of what might happen. I've been used and played in the past... I have trust issues. I know not every guy is the same but I cant help but think... what if you change and you treat me like they did... I've been manipulated, cheated on, used like a toy, lied to, and more I cant talk about. I want to be happy and I want to be with you, but my fear is stronger than I am.... and it breaks me because I know we could be together if I was stronger... I wish you could understand...

I wrote this because I want to tell my crush these this stuff. But I dont know if he would understand or if he would even care.... I have depression, anxiety, and ptsd.... and he doesn't really understand how to deal with me when I go down hill. If anyone has advice that'd be great. Btw I am 18.