I woke up today fine, even w everything happening in my life currently. Then my mother starts crying in front of me apologizing, saying she failed me again. I started crying at 8am and even writing this at 11am I still haven’t stopped crying. I just want to lay in bed and cry so bad. I just don’t want to do anything, I don’t want to breathe. I want a therapist but can’t afford it, at all. I just want to get up and forget everything and leave, but I cannot do that. I keep being fine, and then just remembering the pain, and can’t stop crying.