Hello ladies ,i had my baby girl on July 1st, i was so happy to get over with my csection (see her etc. ).well csection was a horror story/baby girl came with a cleft palate another surprise, i feel so ashamed that i couldn't give in like breastfeed /still blaming my self that i caused her that defect.she staued inthe hospital for 10 days nicu ,i cried myself to sleep begging god that whatever I did to cause this sorry i am.but she's home ,i feel like im walking on eggshells around everyone, i haven't recovered on my time or any .im suddenly crying for no reason ,angry at myself hate towards him and myself. It's postpartum depression back with vengeance hard .i want to tell my husband but i feel like he always has to be smartass back to me saying you know what was going to happen ?anyone going thru this ?