I'm terrified to have another baby at a hospital, so I have avoided most of my prenatal care up to this point. The whole thing just made me feel like it didn't matter what I said or wanted. I was seen a few times at a free clinic and I take my prenatals. I've had a few ultrasounds and my blood pressure is fine. I got told basically ive had no care and I can't be seen by a few providers. I wanted to be seen at a birthing center it's less out of pocket, we just can't afford to go to a hospital again and that's what they suggested. We don't have insurance and don't qualify for Medicaid, we barely have savings for a birth center and I just don't know what to do. Or where to start at this point. I really just wanted to vent and I honestly I know what people think... I never ment for it to happen like this... I just waited to long...