He's mad at me again.

He's mad that our nine month old isn't sleeping in his crib yet.

He's mad that I didn't listen to people when they told me not to let him sleep with us.

He's mad at me because I'm not trying hard enough.

For the longest time I was sleeping on the couch with our son so my husband could sleep and wasn't being woken up every hour. It wasn't until recently that I started sleeping in bed again, but with our son between us. He was fine with it. But now he's just angry.

Trust me, I try and try and try to put my son in his crib. But then he's awake twenty minutes later or as soon as I put him down. I try.

I am currently on the couch, with my son asleep next to me. I'm doing the lazy easy as my husband puts it.

I'm apparently not trying hard enough, I'm not standing there rocking and shushing and patting my son's back while he cries in his crib.

But I am. I'm not lazy. I am trying. I'm doing my damnedest.

I'm home alone with him almost 24/7. Husband is gone from 6am-5pm five days a week.

He doesn't have the slightest clue how hard it is for us mother's. Or even the single father's out there!

I clean, I do loads of laundry, I take care of our son, I take care of our two cats and wild husky, I occasionally cook.

I'm not lazy.

At the end of the day I don't want to stand there for god knows how long trying to soothe my son to sleep when all he wants is warmth and comfort.

He doesn't wake up in the middle of the night to comfort our son. He doesn't wake up in the middle of the night to feed. He doesn't spend hours upon hours home alone with a fussy teethy baby.

He. Doesn't. Know.

I just needed to vent.

I'm just so tired.

My son has four top teeth coming in, all he wants is comfort and not to be alone.

I'm not a bad mother for giving him what he wants.

I carried him for nine months, he is my world, I would do anything for him. I just wish my husband felt the same way.

EDIT::: The couch is a sectional, cushions are quite wide, I sleep on the very edge in the corner area. He's got a square area of space to sprawl. Enjoy my lovely drawing.

EDIT #2 .....

I got my son in his crib tonight!

.... Then my husband came to bed, took off his pants and his belt hit the floor.... Which then woke up the baby.

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How many times does a man need to be told something before they actually fucking listen?!?!?!??!??!??

I've repeatedly said to be quiet when coming to bed cause the floor creaks outside our door, and any noise in the bedroom will wake up our son cause he's just on the other side of the wall.