i’ve been having a hard time identifying exactly what happened to me and i’m not sure how to feel about it. when i was 14, i started dating this guy. we dated for about 4 months (hadn’t kissed, had done NOTHING and he was my first boyfriend) when he started asking me to send him pictures and show him things on facetime. i was iffy and said i didn’t want to but he told me if i really loved him i would. so i did. he didn’t like force me to but he definitely like coerced me into it. at first it was just like boobs but then he wanted more and more and i would do it after he asked a lot but afterwards i would always cry on facetime and panic. he said it was normal and that it was okay... but i was like 15 and felt so guilty about it!! then about a year into the relationship we were at his house alone in the basement and he held me down and kind of like fingered me but i told him no and it HURT. a lot. we broke up shortly after, he ended up cheating on me. but now i am 18 and wondering if that was sexual assault... and how to cope with it. i can’t handle being in that position and being touched by men is difficult for me- is this normal? or am i overreacting. it was 4 years ago but i am just coming to terms with it now. any advice is much appreciated!!!