After 5yrs ttc this happens...

So I took a test June 12th and it was negative. Well I started passing out July 16th when I would sit up straight or when I'd stand. Hubs called an ambulance and some blood work and an ultrasound later...The Drs told me I was 4 weeks pregnant, but the baby got stuck in my right fallopian  tube by 2cm so 2 hours later I was in the OR and my ob/gyn Dr.Dunaway was removing my right tube via liposcopic surgery because the embryo ruptured causing the tube to burst...my conception date was either Father's Day or June 4th..My husband is lost and saddened at the loss of our little one, but I'm completely heart broken. I know i have 6 step children, but I'm still lost and I constantly cry. To make it worse I was on the ob/l&d floor of our hospital.  I kept the door shut because i couldn't stand seeing the babies being rolled by...Dr. says I have a 70% chance of conceiving again and since I have only 1 fallopian tube I'm super fertile from now on, but he wants us to wait at least 4 months before becoming sexually intimate again...just please pray for me a speedy recovery, an understanding grieving process, and another little one the next time we ttc...5 years of ttc and it ended in heartbreak.

My nurse from my first night in the hospital gave me this charm and a poem in memorial of our little one I've been wearing it on the same chain as my crucifix  and I'll never take it off

We will always see July 16,2019 as our baby's birthday no matter what others think...

My belly 2 days  after the ectopic pregnancy  surgery...

It feels as bad as it looks, but at least I can sit up and walk on my own.

Belly 3days after surgery

I'm just sitting here thinking of I'll ever not cry when I see an infant or hear it's cry...