In the shower before you will. On Monday I start my new job. What timing. I fretted about not coloring my roots before starting my new job, but it was all worth it because I wanted to keep safe. I've known for 5 days now that I've been walking around with you dead inside me. I know you don't want to leave your mommy. So this morning, knowing you're gone, I colored my hair. Because this afternoon when I take the Cytotec, it will be your body running down my legs instead of this red dye and I will not have the strength to stand up to color my hair again for a long time. Not with the memory of the red to come staining down my legs. Goodbye Little Bean.