So, this may come off as a bit odd to some but I've wanted to be a cam girl since I was about 14.

I was waiting and waiting to become legal and get my own place so I could do it.

And now I'm 19, and I have an apartment but... I have a boyfriend, who is against the idea.

He said he wouldn't stop me or leave me, but in his eyes it's cheap and it would make him upset... He doesn't think sex work is real work or should be respected.

We just got an apartment together, and I love him dearly.

Do I just give up on my dream? Do I ignore his requests and pursue it anyways?

I don't want to hurt his feelings, but I don't want to compromise on my life for a man...

Am I selfish to want this despite knowing how it would make him feel?

I'm really genuinely torn and sad about this whole ordeal...

Please help !!!

UPDATE:

To clarify I told him that I intended to do this before we started dating, and throughout our relationship. He said he was okay with it, and it was my choice— until recently. He suddenly switched up all the things he affirmed with me before. That's why this is so conflicting and confusing for me.

As to keep my identity private I won't respond to comments.

If you want to know why I want to be a cam girl, I would say you could root it down to the many traumas of my life— but honestly, it's the only way I feel comfortable and confident in my body and sexuality. I feel I can't have physical sex safely or without scarring myself deeply, but I still wish that I could be.

I have always felt such comfort and love from sex workers, and I do not judge people based on their work... There's a lot of reasons I want to be in this industry and it is all very personal for me.