There’s a group of 4 of us that met with our first child each. Now two of them have just had their second child and the third told me last night that she is pregnant with her second.

My heart feels broken, we’ve been trying for a year and a half to have a second, I have an OBG appt on the 29th that I’ve waited over 6 months for, but I feel so lost.

I’m so sick of tests, and vitamins, and stress, and tears. I’m 38, I feel like my time has run out and that 1 is all that I’ll ever be gifted in life. I know I’m lucky to even have the 1 as many do not even have that, but I just feel defeated.