too emotional

so i’m currently 11 weeks pregnant & me and my boyfriend have so much history, ever since last night i’ve been reminiscing all the bad shit he’s done to me, he even dated someone else without letting me know when we broke up but kept talking. in other words he’s treated me like shit sometimes & im now remembering everything & i feel this anger inside me and i just can’t stop crying, now that i’m pregnant he’s super good to me for the most part he gets me what i want & all. but i’m a hard to forget/forgive person if you really did me that wrong & he did. i just don’t know how to control my emotions right now & im scared to hurt my baby for all this anger & crying 😔💔 btw we talked about it a little bit last night but he fell asleep & now i’m just still here mad as fuck at him..