Hi I’m Emma and I’m 5’10, and I’m going into grade 9 in September. I’m very self conscious about how I look and my body looks, which has made me very antisocial and hid in my house. When in public and there was be teenagers I would run away because I would be scared they would make fun of me.. I’ve always been a bigger person, I have a large bone structure, and I just found out I’m a endomorph meaning I Tends to gain weight and keep it on. I’m build is a little wider than an ectomorph or mesomorph, with a thick ribcage, wide hips. The past 2-3 years I’ve gained over 100lbs from unfortunate events, I hate myself so so much and I have no clue what to do.. it scares me that in 44 days I have to go to school with these teenagers I’ve been running away from my whole life. Most guys won’t like me because I’m fat and tall.. and I see it too but I want to know someone else’s opinion because everything I ask someone they say I’m not fat. I like to describe myself as thick..

I wear a woman’s large and XL for tops, sweaters and leggings and for jeans I wear a 16-18

Mens hoodies I wear a large or XL..

I really don’t want to you comment anything mean please as my self esteem can’t take anymore, I know my size is bigger then most peoples my age, and I’m currently trying to fix it.. I eat healthy, I get to work out with my friend, but as an endomorph I have a hard time losing weight I dont know why.. so here is what I look like I was wondering if anyone will wanna be my friend next year? Am I ugly and fat? Would I be okay to play volley ball? Would boys like me? And any tips for endomorphs about losing weight