It has been 52 days since I peed in that stick and was so shocked to see the word “pregnant”. It took me all day to realize I was pregnant for the first time. It’s also been 49 days since I lost that pregnancy. My heart hurts just as much today as it did that day. There are good days where I find some peace in it all, and there are bad days when I see tiny precious new babies and I just want to curl up and cry. Todayhas filled me with so many mixed emotion and I’m still working on processing them all. Here’s to hoping we get our rainbow at the end of this storm one day. 💔🌈