Am I terrible for wanting to try again ?

Trigger warning ⚠️ We lost our daughter in nicu this week. Before her, my husband and I conceived a boy but miscarried at 18 weeks. We tried again once I got my period and I got pregnant right away. I was 7 months when I delivered her. She lived for 1 week and had lots of brain and lung complications. She ultimately passed due to infection in the brain. Am I terrible for already thinking about wanting another baby? I’m obviously grieving her so bad and we wanted her so so bad but why do I feel like we should start trying again? Am I terrible for that? My dr says women are extremely fertile after birth but I can’t have sex for another 4 weeks... I feel so terrible. If you answer yes, please tell me when you’d try again if you were in my shoes. I don’t know if this is just me grieving or what but I don’t want to be a terrible mom.

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