bout of dep

Adika • just a bomb ass mom who all her dreams came true when i gave birth to my son. wifey since nov 2016

this current bout of depression has me ready to drown. I'm litterally not functioning at all. cant get insurance no job no dr. no money no hope. 3 kids husband and mom in law think I'm shit. worst fear is checking into the psych ward so that's not an option. I'd honestly rather just disappear. I need help but not willing to be in a psych ward to get them and with no money no insurance that's the only way where I live