It’s just, at the moment I’m pretty sad. My friends went out without me (they asked me if I wanted to come but due to my strict parents I wasn’t allowed to no matter how much I wanted to). Also tomorrow they’re going at the concert of my favorite singer ever, and guess what. I’m not allowed to go there either... 😢

My parents hate it when I show them that I’m sad or angry. They find it disrespectful and that I don’t appreciate anything they give me. They also claim that I don’t value them.

For this reason I’ve locked myself in my room all day trying to make myself forget about everything going on around me by eating junk and watching YouTube videos. My younger sister won’t make me company, she is bored of me. I even thought of taking my life away today after so many years of not having any suicide thoughts (I used to have when I was 14 or so, and never did again until now that I’m 18). That’s how depressed I feel. I feel like I’ve had my wings cut and that I’m locked only allowed to do what my parents want. I’m not even allowed to show emotion in here. And if I tell them all these, I’ll be the disrespectful daughter. I feel so lonely 😔